current mood:
i had a really, really scary dream
this morning. it was weird, 'cause i
remember it very, very clearly!
its about, my dad and me.
i was walking out of my room,
when suddenly, i saw my dad,
at my living room, breathing very heavily,
bleeding excessively, and asleep.
and there's the type of machine
beside him that can read his heartbeat.
i dunno how it got there!
and it's like, 3 beat after 1 minute.
i just cried there, not knowing
what to do. and then, someone
unknown suggest that i call
the ambulance. in my mind,
i fucking hope that there won't
be hearing 'deeeeeeeeeeeeeeee--'.
i called 995. someone answered.
and he suddenly asked about my
bro's soccer match. -.-
i didn't reply to him, i
immediately told him our address.
when i hang up the phone,
i heard that signal,
that death signal.
i stared at my dad and woke up.
it was really, really scary.
what if my dad die, huh?
i can never, ever manage without him!
i'm too used by his presence...
i'm gonna cherish my time
with my dad. who knows when
the grim reaper might come.
of course i'm scared.
'cause i'll never, ever
see him again!!
i better not think of this
too much. i can't
let it affect my life now.
...papa, i love you. (:
last words.
good luck to yunqian and vivian
for the upcoming audition! :D
